[Poem Share] Jeeper Creepers by the Caffinated Sophist

"What are they?"
"Are they blue?"
"They're green, right?"
"They have to be grey?"
"No, I got it! Hazel, no?"
"It seems like they change
from one color to the next,
like they're chameleons."

"They're defiantly blue."
"Are they green?"
"No they're yellow, hmm?"

"I love looking at them"
Why don't we sit over here
and talk about your eyes.

[Poem Share] My Love of Nyx by the Caffinated Sophist

Nyx fancies me,
and I fancy her.
Her bright white side-ways smile
always brings me joy.

Her cooler dark hair
surrounds me fully,
while my weary eyes leisurely
finds comfort within the darkness of her.

The world looks fuller, richer, and filled
with more mysteries
than with her daughter, Hemera.
Her soft cool and cleaner breath
takes me farther in thoughts
and heals my soul.

I feel like ME!
Not just me, MORE of me!
Free, alive, full, and closer to God!
I feel the world,
I feel the tingling energies surrounding.

And it is this,
this is why I fancy Nyx!
And why she fancies me!
For we understand
peace, peace within.

[Poem Share] Heart Memory by the CaffinatedSophist

Innocent despair,
frozen and wrapped,
heaven is blind to my
heart's inferno.
Are you proud
of stealing?
Laying naked
broken filled with
a hole the size of
my heart.
Hellbound you burglar,
I forget, why?
I have no memory.

Migraines

For those that do not know, a migraine is a compendium of all things stinging, throbbing, stabbing, pounding, squeezing, exploding, poking, prodding, pulsating, agonizing, terrorizing, nauseating, annoying, lingering, photophobic, phonophobic, and simply but not so simply an excruciating experience. Medically, a migraine is a headache, but instead of too much blood in the brain (which causes a typical headache), a migraine is where blood vessels constricts/dilates restricting blood to parts of the brain, causing a great deal of pain, which is an understatement at times. So in a way, migraine suffers experience mini-strokes, since migraines, when occurring, allocate blood from where it is needed. Nerves in the brain need blood for it's oxygen and minerals for many things, without it the nerve vessel can't do their job and become aggravated due to starvation of oxygen.

How can you tell it is a migraine? Well there is a big difference between a typical headache and a migraine; but many people, including me, usually (not always) sees what's called 'auras' before a migraine will occur. These auras vary in description, some may be just blurry shapes (usually in a circular shape, non-geometric), others can be colorful (and some times mulit-color that changes colors) tiny dots, others are painful blurs that blind one eye or the other (very rare to have this kind of aura to be in both eyes). Auras do tend to be in one eye or the other, but it is not too rare to have auras in both eyes.

The pain of migraines are intense. The pain does really feel like either, your head is imploding, exploding, someone is stabbing your head with an ice-pick, a person is banging your head (inside) trying to get out, someone or something is tearing and ripping your brain out, crushing or squeezing your head in, or all of the above. Now the placement of these lovely sensations are varied due to where the brain is being aggravated. Each person is different on what aggravates his/her migraines, generally it's stress ("stress" is an internal source since you can handle your stress level with meditation and self-control) or stress caused by an external source (i.e weather, food, pollution, sound, light, etc.,). How the brain is being aggravated is still unknown, but it is known that when the brain is being aggravated, the blood vessels dilate and cause tension on nerves (causing pain).  Where the aggravation is, the pain occurs, but, here is the fun part, depending on the actual location of the pain, a suffer's eye sight will be lost, but which eye? If my left side is hurting, my right eye can me loosing its sight; now this not always true to all cases due to that sometimes the effects of the migraine are affecting one eye or the other, so you could be feeling pain on one side and being blinded on the same side. This is also true with other senses, motor ability, and any and all functions of the brain, if the migraine is affecting a part of the brain, it would be no wonder that the person having a migraine would have trouble speaking, navigating down a hall way (loss of balance and coordination), seeing smells, tasting colors, etc., all of these are due to the fact the brain has one part of itself without oxygen to function correctly.

Migraines come in all shapes and sizes, from the tiniest (no more than a nuisance) to needing to go to the hospital for heavy narcotics; lasting from no more than 30 minutes to 7 (or more) days. The pain can be in the back of your head, blinding your eye (where you want to pull your eye out to relieve the pain), move from one side to the next, or in between your eyes (sinus migraines are annoyingly painful); the pain could also pulsate as fast as a jackhammer, or slow, hitting you once, randomly, then won't hit again till another random time (those are the worst, make me sick every time, because once it hits the pain is so intense making me want to vomit). They can just be a small annoying pain that won't go away, making you weak over time, which makes the pain feel worse.

I suffer with migraines. I endure these tediously vexatious incidents 2-3 times within a month or two. I used to receive these painful gifts 3-5 times a month (I'll explain how I reduced them further down). My migraines are stimulated by weather fronts (e.g. storm fronts - with clouds and rain, or hot/cold air moving through that could create clouds with rain - i.e. barometric pressure), stress, and too much consumption of the overly-used MSG (monosodium glutamate).

I first got my migraines when I was younger than a teen (not sure on the exact age); it seemed that my asthma and migraines acted as dogs and cats. One would be aggravated by something, which would aggravated the other; say my migraines would be aggravated by the barometric pressure, which in turns stir up my asthma, or my asthma was disturbed by an allergy, which pesters my migraine. I had a very sickly childhood before getting migraines, so my migraines was just icing on the cake of my life. But I digress; I moved to a dryer climate, alleviating and almost growing out of my asthma, but this same area has very frequent storm traffic. If Oklahoma isn't getting rain, it's getting constant fronts moving in and out on an almost constant basis.

I have experienced many different types of migraines, most of which I have described, but one still baffles me, but my wife loves. Now usually, after a migraine lifts (when the effects of the migraine leaves the brain), a person will feel like a new person, or a new flow of energy coursing through, which the person will probably want to do everything and anything. But with this type of migraine, I have some never-ending urge to keep moving, and clean (shhh you did not hear that from me...); I can't help myself, I just need to be actively moving, my head is hurting like hell, but I have to keep moving and doing something, which ends up cleaning.

Now how have I reduced the amount of my migraine occurrences? I try not depend on pain medicine, some times dependence of these pain meds typically make things worse (but not using pain meds is not smart either). I meditate (learned from books and Buddhists). I make sure I place my self in dark quite rooms, and not just when I am having a migraine, less stimulation to the brain (other than thinking and work of course) the better; constantly trying to keep my head clear of junk and lights and sounds really help. Drinking tea instead of coffee; eating properly (no junk food; eating more vegetables; a good intake on vitamins, minerals, antioxidants, and omgea-3's). I am also taking an herbal supplement that I wife's mother sells; it's a Chinese herbal supplement. Now I'm not advertising, nor trying to con my way to have you (my readers) to buy anything. Just telling you what I am taking that helps. This herbal supplement is from a Chinese mushroom that detoxifies the body and has to be taken on a regular basis, I take 2-3 pills a day, everyday. If you like to more, e-mail me. But other wise this is my experience as a migraine sufferer.